135. Blue Eagle ~ I’m Older Again

I’m unrecognizable to the being that once wrote this blog.  Almost an entire tzolkin cycle has gone by since last written, and as the universe expands ever more quickly into the ever extending nothingness, so too experience speeds up and becomes ever more complex.

The summer was spent in great splendor and adventure, J & I pilgrammaged with our green heart cacoon across the US and up the californian coast ending up on Salt Spring Island where we camped beside the Peace Ocean for over a month.  The healing and learning and magic that we encountered every step of the way is as awesome as what it proves, the love and intelligence of the unseen forces that guided and tutored us each step of the way.


149. Red Moon :: Buddha Transmission

“We are what we think, all that we are arises within our thoughts.
With our thoughts we make the world.”   — Buddha

It’s time to deconstruct ancient teachings to acquire their functions to help us develop, grow and succeed in our bodies and reality.  Many people adhere to Buddhist teachings, chasing after a peaceful mind and punishing the self for craving.  I happen to think that if each being was not twisted up into funny shapes by social norms and a rotten media, then there would simply be no fussing, and no suffering that leads to craving for satiety by physical comfort means.  Forgiveness is a great aspect of Compassion.  In forgiveness we make room to move forward in grace and peace.  If we tap into the Consciousness of Gaia, we learn that she is patient and forgiving.  Let us take a deeper peek into the quotations often misheard, as they hold many dimensions of meaning, each significant to receiving the most out of the lessons.

We are what we think, all that we are arises within out thoughts.  This is true through an understanding of being a creator being and knowledge of the Law of Attraction.  If we believe that we are in fact pure creations of nature, created for the sake of experience and creation, then we are sovereign and free to do that which we desire.  Have you ever seen an evil new-born baby?  The purity and joy emanating from a consciousness freshly embodied is that of pure exuberance and curiosity.  Take a look around, are not all things beautiful and full of a mysterious splendour?  The birds sing mystical harmonies and the sun eternally pours a life-giving liquid elixir of light into each living cell on the Earth.  Genius is in the orchestration, and time has proven to us all that the All knows exactly what they’re doing!  From these brilliant bodies that house our infinite intelligence, to the formations of mountains, crystals, all living beings and solar systems are proof that the organization that exists in the Universe is not blind.  And so when we take all this into consideration, we realize that the “we” spoken in “all that we are” can refer to not only an individual human being, but we a collection of all of material existence, arising from a non-material force of energy, or “thought”.  This is a macrocosmic way of perceiving this phrase.

Spiralling in, each layer of expansiveness or complexity or dimension of being is responsible for their own conscious creation and organization of matter.  This is what the Dalai Llama meant when he said prayer to God wasn’t an effective way to stop the wars and famine on Earth because these were mistakes and disasters that the Humans have created ourselves.  A single human consciousness will likely never be responsible for creating new stars and shaping new galaxies, but a single human consciousness can create a garden in his backyard, hold barbecues for his neighbours and friends, and this increases his general happiness and fulfillment, does it not?

“We are what we think, all that we are arises within our thoughts.”  This is quite literally understood on the individual level, as we program our consciousness and daily experience with how we express and describe ourselves and our experience, ref. neuro-linguistic programming.  Pouring out from within, as we accept and return to our true nature that is of loving kindness and curiosity, our consciousness begin to shape the World around us.

With our thoughts we make the world.  We are each free to dream up a reality for ourselves to live and experience, though since we share our environment with many living entities there are certain regulations or etiquettes we should heed.  This is what Jesus taught us, that God made the world for us to Enjoy as Heaven, but we must be kind to each other and all our living friends.  We can develop our technologies and create a more comfortable living environment for ourselves, so long as it doesn’t disturb the eco-systems of the Earth and destroy the habitats of other organisms.  We can even play with sticks and swords, in sport, but to harm and violate the free-will and well-being of others is obviously against right moral conduct.

With our thoughts we make the world.  Think for yourself for a second, what kind of reality would you most prefer to live in?  What colours and shapes, sights and smells send tingles of bliss through your body?  What infrastructures do you most want to live in?  Have you always been taught that there is only replicated brick-houses and regurgitation of meaningless things?  You have your own Body to keep for a life-time of discovery, experience, creation and joy.  What do you want to leave behind as your legacy?  Knowledge and science has created a rift between mentally stored information and embodied action.  What can you create with what you know?

With our thoughts we make the world.  I think of a world of Love and Acceptance, of Compassion and Effortless Joy.  I think of a world of ever flowering trees and an abundance of Life.  I think of a world free of oppression and judgement, where each unique emanation of Consciousness embodied is Free to express themselves in anyway (as long as it doesn’t violate or harm another.)  I think of a world of limitless possibility and co-operation, where the many come together to manifest miraculous structures and generate brilliance and splendour for All to enjoy.  This is the kind of world I want to leave to my Children.

We each have the power to create the experiences and sculpt the World together into a Heaven that we all can envision.  Look around, how can I beautify my Life and bring Joy to the World today?  I’m off to plant some Sun Flowers… ~ Peace.

125. Red Serpent ~ Root is Manifestation

The full moon brings many waves of deep healing and un-expected learning experiences, realizations and integrations.  I’m accepting more and more each day that the intentions and rituals performed by my Human are helpful to the surrendering and acceptance process but inconsequential to the unfolding of the divine plan of which I am simply a body vehicle surrendered to a higher power in Love and Trust.  The relationship that my human conscious self and this higher presence now is that of consistent communication.  I am being told each day to relax, to trust.  To do my best in each moment to sustain a high vibration of Love and non-judgement.

The other morning I had a dream that I, the observer / first person actor in the dream, was an older man.  I was having a sexual interaction with a young girl.  There was a deep love and consent, and the young girl was witty and blunt.  I made her orgasm too quickly and she became upset, she said that it felt like I was forcing her thus was in control more and she didn’t like that.  I woke up feeling perplexed and slightly disturbed, pedophilia being the last thing I want to be involved in.  I decided to meditate for a while on the significance of this dream.  I closed my eyes and moved my attention through my body, noticing slight tensions in my lower belly.  I asked my bodycomplex, why did I have this dream?  Immediately an answer came – the young girl represented the human-body-memory-complex self doing her best to integrate this higher reality.  The older man represents my higher conscious self driving the integration process as quickly and pragmatically as he could without much consideration for he flesh-mammalian feelings of the human side, thus leaving my flesh-human self feeling taken advantage of and neglected.  This whole walk-in process is really far more complex and intriguing than I had previous understood.

124. Yellow Seed ~ Lightship Landing

“Z, you are the Star-Being Shaman Sun-Tribe Leader Earth-mother visionary. Believe in yourself & start acting like it!  This current project is a global lightship crystal energy emanation spell, a new social energy technology experiment and experiential research in releasing density & collective activation from true depth to galactic level activation.  All is in alignment for a collective coming together forming a Wellness Holistic Living Education Centre.  Manifest in Peace and Certainty.  Your body is yours for this lifetime, cultivate with respect and care.  It holds the healing key.  WE are with you.  WE love you.  WE are proud of you.  We water you and bless you with every step.  Have faith in your visions, you are the visionary and must trust your claircognizance ~ if you don’t then why would any other?” ~ Your Keepers & Friends Upstairs.

I’m sitting on a tall-stool in a rural-ontario town Ice-Rink watching my 11 year old brother play hockey.  The space is filled with nervous hockey parents unaware of their nervousness chattering about random mundanity – itching for love -itching for affection.  My perception begins to shift and the fabric of space into a shifting technicolour mesh, my spine erects and my gaze sharpens, I feel as if I move in slow-motion.  Inwardly a joyful, curious being, looking out the window of my eyes, checking out the humans standing in circles conversing.

I notice a distinct difference between my reaction to unactivated humans yesterday, and today.  In an exhausted, depressed and desolate state yesterday, I saw the compression and lack of freedom to express that these beings were experiencing and only became more depressed.  I thought to myself, gee, I really want to die – I don’t want to be here anymore. Their state scared me, it felt like Hell.  Their state a reflection of how I felt in that moment, trapped in a Hell that was my perception of reality in that moment, a vastly different experience to Today.

My eyes glaze over each person in this ice-rink, my energy gently tapping, pulsing over their Soul-star Chakra.  I feel their beings aching for love, aching for affection, aching for freedom.  I feel as if with a gentle push their souls would explode into kaleidoscopes of love in liberation, the amount of love their bodies were capable, the intense amount of compression present – just a little tap, and VOOOSH!  Expanding into rainbow love-beings, laughing Samsara into a distant past.  I see a potential moment in the future when these beings deep in conditioning share a moment of truth and present awareness with each other.  My heart over-fills with love and admiration for each being.  I remember the plan.

When the human is ready, all will manifest.

Humans are innately, naturally affectionate, loving kind and gentle creatures, needing physical affection and channels of creation.  The body is such an intricate hyper-complex and extraordinary technology deserving the highest respect, admiration and care.  In unawareness, technology and materialistic lifestyles created a strained alter-reality matrix.  All that’s needed to release this strain is to genuinely choosing to ponder the magnificence of existence and the human body itself, because only self-appreciation from the creator’s perspective sets a being free to be the creator.

I gulp at the grandiose plans they are conspiring upstairs.  I choose to remain collected in full trust, trying hard not to squeal like a little girl.  Earth is my Home.  And it is So.

122. White Wind :: A Spring Breeze

We are day 2 into the mystic column of the dreamspell day-counter, on the energy of White Overtone Wind.  I found several emails I wrote to some friends back home on my pilgrimage last year and realized I might end up in Taos again the same time of the mayan cycle this year!  I’m excited to compare the experience of my current self to that last year.  I’m excited to see all the growth I’ve accomplished and still further the lessons that must be learned.

My body a seedling


All the time I think “damn I wish I’d started my blog a year ago because it’s so difficult to write now” but then I realize I should just start from where I am because other wise I’ll say the same thing still next year.  It’s difficult to begin now because so much is happening.

Winter is really taking her sweet time this year, riding into April still waking up to snow on the ground.  The last couple of days have been relentless in the release of remaining fear and doubt ~ I feel the intensity rising exponentially ~ It’s been a long time of clearing and healing and learning, and I feel a massive transition close ahead, breakthrough is near.

While on a stroll the other morning suddenly I saw in my root chakra a small plant, a sprouting seedling.  It was green, glowing in rich, dark soil, albeit very young and delicate.  I suddenly felt planted on the Earth, with renewed appreciation and tenderness for myself.  Refreshing clarity in the fact that I am a young body in the process of embodying an infinite consciousness.  That this young body underwent traumatic experiences this lifetime learn about contrast and through lack learn of compassion and unconditional love, through depression learn of infinite joy.  All there is Life, and Time, and this is the very beautiful miracle.