135. Blue Eagle ~ I’m Older Again

I’m unrecognizable to the being that once wrote this blog.  Almost an entire tzolkin cycle has gone by since last written, and as the universe expands ever more quickly into the ever extending nothingness, so too experience speeds up and becomes ever more complex.

The summer was spent in great splendor and adventure, J & I pilgrammaged with our green heart cacoon across the US and up the californian coast ending up on Salt Spring Island where we camped beside the Peace Ocean for over a month.  The healing and learning and magic that we encountered every step of the way is as awesome as what it proves, the love and intelligence of the unseen forces that guided and tutored us each step of the way.


133. SkyWalker ~ Rainforest Dreams

This morning a dream of a master healer in Mt. Shasta telepathically communicating to me and my beloved that we must go see him in 10 days, while we threw out old frozen meat from the freezer.

I daydream about the rainforest and mystical mountains and can hardly wait to break from North America.

125. Red Serpent ~ Root is Manifestation

The full moon brings many waves of deep healing and un-expected learning experiences, realizations and integrations.  I’m accepting more and more each day that the intentions and rituals performed by my Human are helpful to the surrendering and acceptance process but inconsequential to the unfolding of the divine plan of which I am simply a body vehicle surrendered to a higher power in Love and Trust.  The relationship that my human conscious self and this higher presence now is that of consistent communication.  I am being told each day to relax, to trust.  To do my best in each moment to sustain a high vibration of Love and non-judgement.

The other morning I had a dream that I, the observer / first person actor in the dream, was an older man.  I was having a sexual interaction with a young girl.  There was a deep love and consent, and the young girl was witty and blunt.  I made her orgasm too quickly and she became upset, she said that it felt like I was forcing her thus was in control more and she didn’t like that.  I woke up feeling perplexed and slightly disturbed, pedophilia being the last thing I want to be involved in.  I decided to meditate for a while on the significance of this dream.  I closed my eyes and moved my attention through my body, noticing slight tensions in my lower belly.  I asked my bodycomplex, why did I have this dream?  Immediately an answer came – the young girl represented the human-body-memory-complex self doing her best to integrate this higher reality.  The older man represents my higher conscious self driving the integration process as quickly and pragmatically as he could without much consideration for he flesh-mammalian feelings of the human side, thus leaving my flesh-human self feeling taken advantage of and neglected.  This whole walk-in process is really far more complex and intriguing than I had previous understood.

124. Yellow Seed ~ Lightship Landing

“Z, you are the Star-Being Shaman Sun-Tribe Leader Earth-mother visionary. Believe in yourself & start acting like it!  This current project is a global lightship crystal energy emanation spell, a new social energy technology experiment and experiential research in releasing density & collective activation from true depth to galactic level activation.  All is in alignment for a collective coming together forming a Wellness Holistic Living Education Centre.  Manifest in Peace and Certainty.  Your body is yours for this lifetime, cultivate with respect and care.  It holds the healing key.  WE are with you.  WE love you.  WE are proud of you.  We water you and bless you with every step.  Have faith in your visions, you are the visionary and must trust your claircognizance ~ if you don’t then why would any other?” ~ Your Keepers & Friends Upstairs.

I’m sitting on a tall-stool in a rural-ontario town Ice-Rink watching my 11 year old brother play hockey.  The space is filled with nervous hockey parents unaware of their nervousness chattering about random mundanity – itching for love -itching for affection.  My perception begins to shift and the fabric of space into a shifting technicolour mesh, my spine erects and my gaze sharpens, I feel as if I move in slow-motion.  Inwardly a joyful, curious being, looking out the window of my eyes, checking out the humans standing in circles conversing.

I notice a distinct difference between my reaction to unactivated humans yesterday, and today.  In an exhausted, depressed and desolate state yesterday, I saw the compression and lack of freedom to express that these beings were experiencing and only became more depressed.  I thought to myself, gee, I really want to die – I don’t want to be here anymore. Their state scared me, it felt like Hell.  Their state a reflection of how I felt in that moment, trapped in a Hell that was my perception of reality in that moment, a vastly different experience to Today.

My eyes glaze over each person in this ice-rink, my energy gently tapping, pulsing over their Soul-star Chakra.  I feel their beings aching for love, aching for affection, aching for freedom.  I feel as if with a gentle push their souls would explode into kaleidoscopes of love in liberation, the amount of love their bodies were capable, the intense amount of compression present – just a little tap, and VOOOSH!  Expanding into rainbow love-beings, laughing Samsara into a distant past.  I see a potential moment in the future when these beings deep in conditioning share a moment of truth and present awareness with each other.  My heart over-fills with love and admiration for each being.  I remember the plan.

When the human is ready, all will manifest.

Humans are innately, naturally affectionate, loving kind and gentle creatures, needing physical affection and channels of creation.  The body is such an intricate hyper-complex and extraordinary technology deserving the highest respect, admiration and care.  In unawareness, technology and materialistic lifestyles created a strained alter-reality matrix.  All that’s needed to release this strain is to genuinely choosing to ponder the magnificence of existence and the human body itself, because only self-appreciation from the creator’s perspective sets a being free to be the creator.

I gulp at the grandiose plans they are conspiring upstairs.  I choose to remain collected in full trust, trying hard not to squeal like a little girl.  Earth is my Home.  And it is So.

122. White Wind :: A Spring Breeze

We are day 2 into the mystic column of the dreamspell day-counter, on the energy of White Overtone Wind.  I found several emails I wrote to some friends back home on my pilgrimage last year and realized I might end up in Taos again the same time of the mayan cycle this year!  I’m excited to compare the experience of my current self to that last year.  I’m excited to see all the growth I’ve accomplished and still further the lessons that must be learned.

179. Blue Storm ::Wave-X & Transformation

Dearest Star-Tribe,

I spent the majority of the 28th in bed, swimming in the energies that are raining down on us.  I think many people were expecting some sort of big event to happen, looking outwards for catastrophe, celebration or some sort of happening attraction.  After a 17 hour slumber, and a walk in the rain, I’ve returned to my nest paying good attention to how my body is feeling and perceiving, receiving.  It’s no coincidence that this wave of transformative cosmic energy lands on the day of Blue Storm, the day in which the electrical circuits of our bodies are rewired, reconfigured to hold more light, transmutating the negative blocked crystals of energy in our many layers of bodies into light.

To my understanding this wave of energy will continue to heal, cleanse and transform us for the years to come, reaching some point of completion in 2018.  The best thing to do around this time is to remain calm, though it may seem like nothing extreme is happening, strong energies are pouring in from the cosmos and our bodies are under immense pressure to adjust and transfigure!  Be kind to yourself.  You may have headaches, flu-like symptoms, pressures within your body,  take note of the parts of your body that are feeling discomfort and intentionally help your body heal these parts by sending healing comfort and heart-energy.  It may be worthwhile to fast for a few days giving the digestive system a well-deserved break!  Fasts are especially helpful during this time of cleansing as the body will use or release any sick, toxic cells and wastes.  Digestion uses 60% of the body’s energy and is a process that rarely gets a break!  You’ll find that you’ll have even more energy than usual, especially during the first day, after the first 3 days.  Lemon water and green juices are recommended, fruits that are acidic and high in sugars are not recommended during a cleansing fast.

The world is a place of magic and splendour.

The ascended Earth is upon us.
She’s waiting for us to waken from our deep slumber, and clean up the mess that older generations have created in the Earth and our collective psyche, though not in vain!  I say between having to work hard to de-condition ourselves now and having technologies and science, or still living in hunting and gathering societies, I would have wanted the comfort and efficiency of technologies – I think it was all worth it – if we can successfully bring the collective back from our temporary amnesia.
Cosmic love & infinite bliss,
Xi 🐦

Baba’s Blessing, A Seed Blossoms

Dearest Friends,

I absent mindly, while kicking and screaming about how powerful the energies these days are, forgot that my own day might get really interesting… Well shortly after booking my bus back to Montreal, I went to the Ashram and sat by the creek in the Merry Gardens.  On my way there I held only one prayer in my mind, and that is for a smooth journey home without delays by greyhound.  Once there, I smoked some weed, and entered a watery, glittering, cartoonish reality.  I’m met by a man with speckled white hair who began to animatedly tell a story: “I had a really vivid dream just now, I just got up from a nap, it’s the first hanuman dream I’ve ever had!  In my dream I was taking Ananda to the bus station.  I kept telling her that we were gonna make it.  It’s Hanuman’s bus and it’ll take you to where you need to go, smoothly and safely!  We get on the bus and it goes, when we open the door we were in Canada! I yelled: “Hey look, we’re in Canada!”. I just kept telling her, the bus was Hanuman’s bus and it was gonna take you there!  But we went to Canada! How peculiar!”
I stared at him wide-eyed: “I had just booked a bus to Canada, and was just praying for smooth sailing moments ago!”  He ran over in ecstatic joy and gave me a high-five.  Jai!  That’s how things work around here!
He ran off after his cigarette, and a young guardian of the temple, Greg, remains smiling contently at a plate of food he held in his hands.  He looked over at me, I say sweetly: “You know, this is the best self-organizing space I’ve ever experienced.  What’s the deal?”  He smiles gently: “Well, you know when two people meet, their energies combine into a new thing or space that is is uniquely that.  When a group of people come together with a similar vision, intention, all connected to all that is and the grand intention / field, then an interesting thing begins to happen.  I believe that the universe is constantly interacting with us, through everything, it’s just that most of the time we aren’t paying attention to receiving its messages.  I told him briefly about La Plante and orbiting pods, this seeming state of transition for the organic living energetic community of people surrounding the space, that the Plant seem to be a spirit organizing and manifestating itself through time, and the humans surrounding the spirit are beginning to love each other in deeper ways.  He calmed relays: “You know when a space of one vision / intention goes a period of time in a certain energy or way, when the time of transformation comes residual habitual feelings remain.  The best thing to do would be a ritual, a celebration of the individuals involved in the intentional community and a rediscovery and reminder, empowerment and renewal of the vision!”  He smiles brightly, like a monkey, he finished his food, he handed me a chalisa CD.   I felt the spirit of the Ashram so strongly, Baba was giving us a blessing!
By this point I was overflowing with contentment and excitement, I couldn’t hold back my giggles of happiness the whole way to the main Ashram building, I found a table in the library and sat down to journal.  On the table I see a very small green cricket, I exclaim: “Oh, how cute!”  An angel a meter away looks up from her book and joins me in the admiration of this cricket.  I pull our Owen’s camera and she comes and sits beside me.  She opens her book and asked me to take a photo of a quote she was reading so I can send it to her, it’s George Washington’s farewell address.

~ “It will be worthy of a free, an enlightened, and at no period a great, nation to give to mankind the magnanimous and too novel example of a people always guided by an exalted justice and benevolence. Who can doubt that, in the course of time and things, the fruits of such a plan would richly repay any temporary advantages which might be lost by a steady adherence to it? Can it be that provenance has not connected the permanent facility of a nation with its virtue?” ~

I realize that this was the initiation of America, the guiding intention for this budding community, country, on Earth.  Capitalism and Materialism are tests, and we are remembering that freedom and happiness are our birth right.

The recent ugly affairs, city pestering the Plant about our garden, and the city dismantling a lovely communal space created by the residents who live there to enjoy in daily life, without warning and with conviction, has stirred up much disappointment, sadness, but invigoration.  The unfortunate connection in a microcosmic scale of this event to colonization and asserting power over native peoples is apparent yet subordinate to the terribly upsetting realization that this is a fine reminder for all citizens to realize that society, or the governors of society, have forgotten the essential aspects of Life – love, joy and happiness.

Her name turns out to be Micaela, I think of the Archangel, she definitely glowed like one.  She told me that in this moment she was saying anything Spirit wants her to relay to me: “age doesn’t matter, you can achieve what you want, don’t let your age create any doubt in you.  Trust in yourself, because you are there.  Receive miracles.  Nobody cares about grammar because what you transmit will be perfect to the the intended audience no matter what.  Baby crickets are harbingers of a sign – that a baby boy may be born soon.  Crystal children are being born, they are pure joy, pure love.”

So it becomes clear that a sanctuary, living community is to be birthed in Montreal, which were the visions had a year ago.  I met Rich so that I could be brought to Baba’s temple, and experience the experiential teachings, upgrades and activations.  This is my current understanding of the situation.


Xi 🐦

164. Yellow Seed :: A Hologram of Completion

Good morning friends,

Yesterday was the new moon and solar eclipse.  I received an empowerment from a Tibetan Lama Rimpoche alongside a tibetan nun, and a crystal bowl toning from a Hermetic space-man magician.  All I could think about was coming home.  I had to come learn the hard way, but the truth remains that all the activations and “empowerments” that we need happen within our own body with our own intent driven with our own mind and and attention, no matter where we are in the world or who is supposedly blessing us.  Temples and churches become spirit hospitals, single truth of self being the greatest doctor shoved under a rug as “Long live the Guru!” is sung.

Today is the day of the Yellow Seed, symbolizing a complete manifestation held within a seed, in thought of dream or fantasy or destiny.  “Yellow seed is the ordered pattern of growth. You and your life are the fertile soil, and the mystery blooms within you through the power of your intention or seed thoughts.  Just as a seed contains the hologram of its completion, the process of manifestation follows a natural order.  In this gestation process, your intention is quickened by Spirit.  The charged seed, your true desire or vision, becomes the focus for germination.”
Yesterday on the day of the blue night, all I could day-dream about was a prosperous home full of love, abundance, openness and creativity.  As the Red Moon, my gift is consciousness and awareness, of understanding, perception and receptivity, this only means that I see reality, not that I am the conscious dreamer nor the creator.  Over the years of being with you all it’s become apparent that we have a galactic team that is working together in the manifestation of something, though in our awakening and growing process, since we’ve all gone through the veil of forgetfulness, we are just remembering all our gifts and the depth of our roles now.  How wonderful it is to wake up in the middle of an already growing, already prospering, already present family and missions?
It helps to all be on the same page about our missions together.  It helps to be in love and be one with each other.  The only way to achieve this state fully is a dedicated period of time of healing and cleansing for ourselves – please ask questions!  I was lucky to have experienced myriad awakenings while you carried me through these past few years so that I could be useful in this moment!
Suggested meditation: think about yourself, expand this to the people that surround you each day, include the things that these people share in common, notice their traits and gifts and specialities and acknowledge their presence with love and admiration.  Picture yourself standing inside a pyramid that magnetizes and rejuvenates your energetic bodies, alongside all of your companions in this grand journey.  Allow the energy of the Yellow Seed aid you in recognizing the hologram of the completion of our star-ship, and the amount of love and power we can pour into the world should we truly become without any fear and insecurity – should we truly become one with each other –
I booked my return ticket, I’ll see you this weekend.
Xi 🐦