I am a seed, of a Star.

It has been exactly a solar year since my spirit-miracle-awakening pilgrimage to the desert of New Mexico.  I can’t believe I spent so much time both in love – trembling in extreme excitement at our exhilarating and magical, splendid reality, gushing at the visions of what is to come, and in fear – doubting my authentic beingness, succumbing to insecurity and trying my darned best to squish myself back into the lower density personality-life I had been living before my awakening journey took me for a spin.

A year ago I took a vow – an oath of dedicating this body-mind purely to service, to become that which is needed most during the transition on Earth at this time, understanding that my limited perceptions in this body couldn’t possibly compare to the all-knowingness of Source.  The one consciousness must know all that is on Earth, and thus must know where my unique being could best develop and be of service.  Being an awakened soul on a suffering planet, in compassion making this vow was the only option.  My then inexperienced Earth being had no idea what this would entail – it took an entire year of experiences to show myself what integrating this reality into my body truly means – and still it’s becoming clear that this is just the beginning.

After a few months of chasing synchronicitic adventures, receiving upgrades, meeting multi-dimensional beings both in physical and in astral, downloading information and seeing visions, and receiving plenty of affirmations of a very magical, interactive and limitless world-reality – I moved back to Montreal where I had lived for 3 years previous to these experiences and basically sunk back into the shadows of forgetfulness.  Intuitively, and through a tarot reading early on in this shadow period, I knew I was to move back to my hometown in Alliston, Ontario to live with my parents.  But this would mean leaving my “perfect life” of being with “musician friends” who were the first friends I ever had in my life, who cared about “spirituality” enough to do shrooms once in a while and listen to trance music.  The home I lived in glistened in the sun, plants flourished, music played ~ it was the first stable home I had ever in my life and I was quickly growing attached to it.  Surely, I thought, being a divine agent, I should deserve to live in a nice house!  Surely, I would catch myself convincing myself, I should get to decide where this house ought to be!

Someone wise and funny once said: “If spirit calls, and you don’t go, you get dragged.”

This is basically exactly what happened.  Taking the scenic route of ignoring intuition and manifesting unintentional periods of time in places cause ripples.  The lesson I learned here was that spirit will turn every situation into oppurtunities for healing, release and learning.  As we make decisions, reality is always reacting to our actions, the in each moment an infinite number of outcomes are collapsing into our experience in the moment, experienced as linear time.  As I decided that I would remain in Montreal for a indefinite amount of time, against my inner knowing that this is not where I could express my fullest authentic self and achieve the maximum amount of growth and productivity, the conscious-interactive-reality responded: “Oh ya?  Okay fine.  I will create for you a reality-experience that will a) achieve maximal learning/healing for you and all involved and b) ensure that the outcome is re-alignment with the reality which is best for you.”

I first thought my female roommate was my twin, I recognized a soul-spark in her and this was what I felt attracted to, my lower understandings of attraction dubbed it “being in love” and so I wrote her a love-letter.  Earth-self is naive, Star-self loves every body ~ I learned quickly that this festers complicated problems in this society, as soon I confused her ex-boyfriend who was my other roommate, as my twin-flame also.  It was intense because my body was responding to the presence of his body strongly, I could feel him from the other room, and many synchronous healing moments were happening, the experience was very intense emotionally and there was little room for logic.  This stirred up very strong reactions of anger and betrayal from my female roommate, which is what lead to breakthroughs surrounding jealousy, attachment, possessiveness and onelove, but also to me getting kicked out of the house, and this lead to me moving back to my parents home, in Alliston Ontario.

I could have moved back home when I first received the intuition, and tarot-confirmations that this was the right thing for me to do.  The tarot warned me of my attachment to material security, a part of me really wanted to find out what happens when we “disobey” these signs – this being still relatively early in my spiritual development on Earth this time around.  I could have spared me and my roommates the months of emotional turmoil despite the exponential growth and healing we all ended up experiencing, because I truly do believe we are shifting from fear-based learning (through mistakes and pain) to love-based learning (through receiving and cultivating).

The last 3 months of integrating into life here has been nothing short of a rollercoaster.  My family are first generation Chinese immigrants living in a small town 1 hour north of Toronto with 15000 population mostly Caucasian, having lived here for 10 years both my parents are twisted up emotionally from having zero acquaintances.  My 10 year-old brother showing signs of neurosis and emotional instability.  I created a safe-cavern in a cube shaped bedroom in our family house.  Quickly remembered my high-school self plagued by self-hatred, depression, anorexia-bulimia which brought up a whole slew of unresolved emotions from having been disowned and tossed onto the street when I was 16 by my own mother.

The polarity between integrating my star-being cosmic healing sage priestess galactic fairy personality here to save the world, and my self-sabataging hurt little girl abandoned by her family and left all by herself, lost in a new continent are clashing so directly on top of and in around all over each other.

Each moment gaining clarity, coherence, understanding, structuralizing.  Finding meaning and reason, empowering experience into solutions.

My seedlings sprouted today.

It seems that lots of orgone is flowing around here…

179. Blue Storm ::Wave-X & Transformation

Dearest Star-Tribe,

I spent the majority of the 28th in bed, swimming in the energies that are raining down on us.  I think many people were expecting some sort of big event to happen, looking outwards for catastrophe, celebration or some sort of happening attraction.  After a 17 hour slumber, and a walk in the rain, I’ve returned to my nest paying good attention to how my body is feeling and perceiving, receiving.  It’s no coincidence that this wave of transformative cosmic energy lands on the day of Blue Storm, the day in which the electrical circuits of our bodies are rewired, reconfigured to hold more light, transmutating the negative blocked crystals of energy in our many layers of bodies into light.

To my understanding this wave of energy will continue to heal, cleanse and transform us for the years to come, reaching some point of completion in 2018.  The best thing to do around this time is to remain calm, though it may seem like nothing extreme is happening, strong energies are pouring in from the cosmos and our bodies are under immense pressure to adjust and transfigure!  Be kind to yourself.  You may have headaches, flu-like symptoms, pressures within your body,  take note of the parts of your body that are feeling discomfort and intentionally help your body heal these parts by sending healing comfort and heart-energy.  It may be worthwhile to fast for a few days giving the digestive system a well-deserved break!  Fasts are especially helpful during this time of cleansing as the body will use or release any sick, toxic cells and wastes.  Digestion uses 60% of the body’s energy and is a process that rarely gets a break!  You’ll find that you’ll have even more energy than usual, especially during the first day, after the first 3 days.  Lemon water and green juices are recommended, fruits that are acidic and high in sugars are not recommended during a cleansing fast.

The world is a place of magic and splendour.

The ascended Earth is upon us.
She’s waiting for us to waken from our deep slumber, and clean up the mess that older generations have created in the Earth and our collective psyche, though not in vain!  I say between having to work hard to de-condition ourselves now and having technologies and science, or still living in hunting and gathering societies, I would have wanted the comfort and efficiency of technologies – I think it was all worth it – if we can successfully bring the collective back from our temporary amnesia.
Cosmic love & infinite bliss,
Xi 🐦

Baba’s Blessing, A Seed Blossoms

Dearest Friends,

I absent mindly, while kicking and screaming about how powerful the energies these days are, forgot that my own day might get really interesting… Well shortly after booking my bus back to Montreal, I went to the Ashram and sat by the creek in the Merry Gardens.  On my way there I held only one prayer in my mind, and that is for a smooth journey home without delays by greyhound.  Once there, I smoked some weed, and entered a watery, glittering, cartoonish reality.  I’m met by a man with speckled white hair who began to animatedly tell a story: “I had a really vivid dream just now, I just got up from a nap, it’s the first hanuman dream I’ve ever had!  In my dream I was taking Ananda to the bus station.  I kept telling her that we were gonna make it.  It’s Hanuman’s bus and it’ll take you to where you need to go, smoothly and safely!  We get on the bus and it goes, when we open the door we were in Canada! I yelled: “Hey look, we’re in Canada!”. I just kept telling her, the bus was Hanuman’s bus and it was gonna take you there!  But we went to Canada! How peculiar!”
I stared at him wide-eyed: “I had just booked a bus to Canada, and was just praying for smooth sailing moments ago!”  He ran over in ecstatic joy and gave me a high-five.  Jai!  That’s how things work around here!
He ran off after his cigarette, and a young guardian of the temple, Greg, remains smiling contently at a plate of food he held in his hands.  He looked over at me, I say sweetly: “You know, this is the best self-organizing space I’ve ever experienced.  What’s the deal?”  He smiles gently: “Well, you know when two people meet, their energies combine into a new thing or space that is is uniquely that.  When a group of people come together with a similar vision, intention, all connected to all that is and the grand intention / field, then an interesting thing begins to happen.  I believe that the universe is constantly interacting with us, through everything, it’s just that most of the time we aren’t paying attention to receiving its messages.  I told him briefly about La Plante and orbiting pods, this seeming state of transition for the organic living energetic community of people surrounding the space, that the Plant seem to be a spirit organizing and manifestating itself through time, and the humans surrounding the spirit are beginning to love each other in deeper ways.  He calmed relays: “You know when a space of one vision / intention goes a period of time in a certain energy or way, when the time of transformation comes residual habitual feelings remain.  The best thing to do would be a ritual, a celebration of the individuals involved in the intentional community and a rediscovery and reminder, empowerment and renewal of the vision!”  He smiles brightly, like a monkey, he finished his food, he handed me a chalisa CD.   I felt the spirit of the Ashram so strongly, Baba was giving us a blessing!
By this point I was overflowing with contentment and excitement, I couldn’t hold back my giggles of happiness the whole way to the main Ashram building, I found a table in the library and sat down to journal.  On the table I see a very small green cricket, I exclaim: “Oh, how cute!”  An angel a meter away looks up from her book and joins me in the admiration of this cricket.  I pull our Owen’s camera and she comes and sits beside me.  She opens her book and asked me to take a photo of a quote she was reading so I can send it to her, it’s George Washington’s farewell address.

~ “It will be worthy of a free, an enlightened, and at no period a great, nation to give to mankind the magnanimous and too novel example of a people always guided by an exalted justice and benevolence. Who can doubt that, in the course of time and things, the fruits of such a plan would richly repay any temporary advantages which might be lost by a steady adherence to it? Can it be that provenance has not connected the permanent facility of a nation with its virtue?” ~

I realize that this was the initiation of America, the guiding intention for this budding community, country, on Earth.  Capitalism and Materialism are tests, and we are remembering that freedom and happiness are our birth right.

The recent ugly affairs, city pestering the Plant about our garden, and the city dismantling a lovely communal space created by the residents who live there to enjoy in daily life, without warning and with conviction, has stirred up much disappointment, sadness, but invigoration.  The unfortunate connection in a microcosmic scale of this event to colonization and asserting power over native peoples is apparent yet subordinate to the terribly upsetting realization that this is a fine reminder for all citizens to realize that society, or the governors of society, have forgotten the essential aspects of Life – love, joy and happiness.

Her name turns out to be Micaela, I think of the Archangel, she definitely glowed like one.  She told me that in this moment she was saying anything Spirit wants her to relay to me: “age doesn’t matter, you can achieve what you want, don’t let your age create any doubt in you.  Trust in yourself, because you are there.  Receive miracles.  Nobody cares about grammar because what you transmit will be perfect to the the intended audience no matter what.  Baby crickets are harbingers of a sign – that a baby boy may be born soon.  Crystal children are being born, they are pure joy, pure love.”

So it becomes clear that a sanctuary, living community is to be birthed in Montreal, which were the visions had a year ago.  I met Rich so that I could be brought to Baba’s temple, and experience the experiential teachings, upgrades and activations.  This is my current understanding of the situation.

OH I’M SO EXCITED.

Xi 🐦

164. Yellow Seed :: A Hologram of Completion

Good morning friends,

Yesterday was the new moon and solar eclipse.  I received an empowerment from a Tibetan Lama Rimpoche alongside a tibetan nun, and a crystal bowl toning from a Hermetic space-man magician.  All I could think about was coming home.  I had to come learn the hard way, but the truth remains that all the activations and “empowerments” that we need happen within our own body with our own intent driven with our own mind and and attention, no matter where we are in the world or who is supposedly blessing us.  Temples and churches become spirit hospitals, single truth of self being the greatest doctor shoved under a rug as “Long live the Guru!” is sung.

Today is the day of the Yellow Seed, symbolizing a complete manifestation held within a seed, in thought of dream or fantasy or destiny.  “Yellow seed is the ordered pattern of growth. You and your life are the fertile soil, and the mystery blooms within you through the power of your intention or seed thoughts.  Just as a seed contains the hologram of its completion, the process of manifestation follows a natural order.  In this gestation process, your intention is quickened by Spirit.  The charged seed, your true desire or vision, becomes the focus for germination.”
Yesterday on the day of the blue night, all I could day-dream about was a prosperous home full of love, abundance, openness and creativity.  As the Red Moon, my gift is consciousness and awareness, of understanding, perception and receptivity, this only means that I see reality, not that I am the conscious dreamer nor the creator.  Over the years of being with you all it’s become apparent that we have a galactic team that is working together in the manifestation of something, though in our awakening and growing process, since we’ve all gone through the veil of forgetfulness, we are just remembering all our gifts and the depth of our roles now.  How wonderful it is to wake up in the middle of an already growing, already prospering, already present family and missions?
It helps to all be on the same page about our missions together.  It helps to be in love and be one with each other.  The only way to achieve this state fully is a dedicated period of time of healing and cleansing for ourselves – please ask questions!  I was lucky to have experienced myriad awakenings while you carried me through these past few years so that I could be useful in this moment!
Suggested meditation: think about yourself, expand this to the people that surround you each day, include the things that these people share in common, notice their traits and gifts and specialities and acknowledge their presence with love and admiration.  Picture yourself standing inside a pyramid that magnetizes and rejuvenates your energetic bodies, alongside all of your companions in this grand journey.  Allow the energy of the Yellow Seed aid you in recognizing the hologram of the completion of our star-ship, and the amount of love and power we can pour into the world should we truly become without any fear and insecurity – should we truly become one with each other –
I booked my return ticket, I’ll see you this weekend.
Xi 🐦

163. Blue Night :: Conscious Dreamweaving

~ “I am the darkness that is the light and the stillness that is the dancing.” ~

Dearest Star-tribe;

I want to express my gratitude to you all for being a powerful grounding force in my life, as these e-transmissions comfort me in knowing that there are still connections and situations that are steady and unchanging amidst the fiercely extraordinary sensorial and perceptive experiences, and help me collect my thoughts to integrate new insights and abilities into an already existing schema.

It was another intense evening at the ashram.  There is a lot of talk about rainbow bodies and the super-natural capabilities of truly enlightened lamas.  I glance further down the rabbit hole and question how far down I’ve tripped, how much further I should go – if I have any say in the matter, and where is the most practical place to rest my being to be of maximum benefit to the upliftment and liberations of all beings.  I’m skeptical of the path within which the only way to achieve true enlightenment is by dedicating all my time and energy into a personal practice.  I feel strongly that it would somehow be a waste of a human body, as the only way to change things in the material world is through manipulating matter – eg. the technology that allow us to do things we normally wouldn’t be able to, like airplanes, refrigerators, computers, etc… The new-age higher-dimensional beings say that we are coming into a period of time where energies from space are activating the next stage of evolution in our human bodies, making it possible for us to acquire telepathy, teleportation, spontaneous healing through simply being in maximum health.  This is the reality that I want, thus believe in most, simply because I feel deeply in love and awe of my absolutely incredible body.  I’m in love with my senses, dancing, creek giggling across my feet, wind caressing my cheek sending cool sparkling trickles through all the rest of my body… The wholeness of joining in sacred union with another… It can’t possibly be that all in the material plane was created so that we can suffer and learn to escape it…

But this is a difficult belief to hold onto while hanging out with an incredibly high, joyous and soft-spoken yet knowing being such as a liberal and relaxed Buddhist nun somehow – as when I’m around her I doubt myself still and wonder if I should indeed be meditating on a mountain.

Today she told me the story of one of her empowerments: she was in a depleted state in both mind and body, and upon being empowered by this powerful lama, she was completely healed in all aspects, glowing in vitality.  I told her the story of my drug overdose on 4FA and poxy.  While I was very incoherent and puking in a bathroom stall, these beings appeared in saucers in another spacial dimension and directed a red laser in both my eye-balls, used space to shift my body for a few moments, flashed a smile then disappeared.  I took a 30 minute nap and upon waking I was in perfect health, activated and dancing.  We both agreed that it was a similar experience.

In the later evening, Skye and I did a short Dzogchen practice that was surprisingly powerful, immediately after which I began to rapidly and effectively release thought-patterns, fear and other emotional blockages.  My reluctance in falling solely into traditional spiritual practices still exist due to its secrecy, forms of transmission and the belief that enlightenment could only be attained during death, and that it should be the only path to the light.  The powers and effects of practice are indisputable – the mission is in discovering the simplest, most effective practice – and even more so the unleashing of each individual’s inner highest self allowing the most enjoyment.

In my personal experience, all activations and clearing has been obtained through dancing, psychedelics, communication between consciousness and body, communication with our local star, and spontaneous activations by space-beings.  Formal spiritual empowerment is a relatively new thing, and I’m excited to give it full receptivity.  Today I’m receiving a Red Tara empowerment from a lama in Santa Fe, followed by a new moon crystal toning with one magic school creator called Planewalker (yes that’s his psytrance DJ pseudonym.)  Energy streaming from the southwest to the power-spots and power-rangers of MTL!

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Today’s energy is Blue Resonant Night – the energy of the blue night envelopes me with warmth and security, a space within which I’m free to imagine the most beautiful, magnificent scenarios and ways to bring them into fruition without apprehension in “possibility” and supposed material obstacles.  The dreamfield is our imagination, creating scenarios for attention to observe and create in our innerverse, thus also giving us a place to analyze and evaluate reality and the environment and social system within which we live.  Becoming a conscious dreamer is courage in believing in the wildest fantasies, and boldly striving forward with true creativity, being true to ourselves.  While the term “dream” most often refer to the phenomena of experience while asleep, the conscious dreamer realizes creation and manifestation of experience in “real-life”.

A suggested meditation for today: crawl into a safe-warm space and rest your body.  Imagine a dark, clear sky, moon and stars.  Imagine yourself between the sky and what seems like Earth, and begin to slowly shift your perspective down towards the Earth – the inhabitants of this Earth are of similar evolutionary development as us, but each and every person is joyful, creative, and individually unique, authentic, yet cohesive as community.  This visualization of this Earth lies super-imposed on top of the current reality of Earth, and between the two realities is Time.  Time and energy is the most effective way for material beings to manipulate reality… Daydreaming is an essential part of straying from old thought-patterns and experiential habits.  Allow yourself to imagine yourself as any being you please, filling your time and utilizing your energy in bringing our current reality into the one we imagine to be Heaven on Earth, for ourselves and all others.

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Cosmic love & infinite bliss,

Xi 🐦

162. White Wind :: Farewell to Doubt

Sunny afternoon dear Star-Tribe;

My favourite snap from yesterday ^
I thought I’d be chanting and getting high off mantras in the temple yesterday, but Baba had other plans for me.  In the early afternoon I met new friends in the kids village, Sam and his three half Chinese daughters.  He asked me where I was born, I told him between Mongolia and North Korea, he told me that my ancestors were reindeer nomad people, and that I was a Shaman woman.  Before I could express my uncertainty with the use of term “Shaman” to him, he continued to say that the word Shaman derives from a northern Asian language Evenki – which ultimately derived from sanskrit word श्रमण (śramaṇá) roughly meaning exhausted monk.  Skye told me that if I left in the middle of the festival then I wouldn’t be allowed back in.  For a moment I became fearful of the Guru, doubting in my own will and judgement – but decided that fear of the Guru is bullshit.  I asked Baba if it was alright to leave Bhandara, he said something along the lines of “choose your adventure.”  I was bored of chanting sanskrit mantras, so off I went.  When I arrived at their humble adobe house, my jaw dropped as I realized that these living conditions, some even far worse, are a reality for many people on Earth.  He said: “you grew up in China right? so you’ll be alright sleeping on the floor with us.”  Sam was exhausted from having baked bread all week to make enough money to feed his family.  We smoked some weed and his eyeballs moved around like a space-being.
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To me when people of white wind energy show up in my life it signifies the beginning of new projects, the arrival of momentum necessary to carry out the physical manifestation of these projects.  The wind carries messages for us to receive from our companions and the universe.  When we take a conscious breath, the wind brings refreshing awareness.

It may come to you as a surprise that I’ve suddenly begun to write to you in such an intense manner.  I’m deciding to relax a little bit… I hope you excuse my excessive feelings of urgency.  Each day I see more and more clearly the depth and amount of work there is to do here, and growing skeptical of traditional spiritual teachings which mostly state that buddhahood and enlightenment can only be achieved at time of death after decades of meditation and chanting to some obscure Guru sent here from the heavens.  I think it’s silly and dangerous to take away all responsibility from each and every individual to find their own soul, essence, being, GOD, and outdated by only a few thousand years… Which is NOT an arduous, laborious task that’s going to take decades, in fact with dedication and sincerity opens up a portal for all to ENJOY life in the 3D which is why it exists.  How silly for spiritual advancement to become a serious task?

One more pet peeve surrounding spiritual matters is obsession with the word “enlightenment” and total disregard for the fact that the body is such a brilliant piece of art and not something we entered just so that we can learn how to leave it again through devoting all our time in it to practices.
Alas my friends, I’m very tired and very grateful and very blissed out and remain in constant fascination.
Xi 🐦

161: Red Dragon :: Establishing Trust

Good morning Peace-Brigade!

We begin our 20-days of transmissions with the Red Resonant Dragon energy, I dedicate this day to purification, cultivation of kundalini energy, using our internal fires to burn away thought-forms, blockages and habits that doesn’t bring us happiness and enjoyment.  The Red Dragon is connected to the Root Chakra, helping us establish trust in our abilities to navigate the world and provide us with security and nourishment. In my personal experience, people of Red Dragon energies bring me higher awareness of my body, enhancing the feeling of unity of all my cells, creating a sense of entirety – moving all parts simultaneously – coherency makes the body feel lighter, connection between mind and body becomes clearer, thinner (ref: mushrooms, veteran use of ketamine)
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Last night I read a book on Dzogchen practices (which felt eerily familiar) – according to this master of lineage, Dzogchen is practiced in 13 different solar systems, the information is downloaded by masters who “were born from higher dimensions” or “deities” incarnate.  When not referred to as Lamas, Masters or Gurus, new-age terminology simply refer to them as “aliens” 😅.  The texts transmit awareness of our different bodies, physical, subtle and consciousness, which is essentially the key to enlightenment and liberation, as awareness of our wholeness – self-realization – is ultimately simply that!
It’s become apparent that my life up to this point has been a thorough preparation for the bodhisattva work I’ve come to Earth to do.  I believe that this is what we’ve all come here to do, and I’m overjoyed that our game-plan this time is way more exciting than previous missions (for example monasteries, restriction, secrecy, spiritual sensationalism…)  I believe that music, dancing and “retreat” festivals entirely of our design are the experiential healing modality that we will be working on.  Conscious, mindful, activated guides of psychedelic drug use included.  This sort of revolutionary spiritual work is extremely exciting and our reality!  What an exciting time to be alive?!  With the technology and social situation we have at hand this time around, I’d say this is way more stimulating than being on mountains meditating (which is also really fun and we should all do it together sometime… maybe many times.)  There simply is no better meditation in aligning all our bodies than through Dance.  It is the most powerful way we can share our energies with others.  It’s also probably the most fun way.  I don’t think our shared interest in raves and dance rituals is obsolete, and together we’ve done enough research to know exactly what needs to shift, evolve, expand and – become. – ! \ 😂 / !
The story of my awakening has been enchanting.  I’d like to share it with you all, in person will be better.  It’s taken me over a year to integrate this reality, the possibility of being one of these “aliens” arriving on Earth with some sort of modality to alleviate suffering.  There were moments when it dawned on me that I might have to meditatite for 10 years (I’d submit if that’s what is required of me) but that just doesn’t sound like fun.  I don’t personally believe that enlightenment is when you meditate to such a high plane that you dematerialize altogether… I think that’s even a bit backwards cause we all incarnate in physical bodies because we like sensuality, we like sweet tastes and gentle caresses and fragrant smells… if we wanted to dematerialize we’d just die and go back to being universal energy…
It’s a funny experience, being at the stage of being 21 years-old in the lifetime of a “Guru”.  Thank the Heavens it’s this time-period of self-liberation and self-becoming-deity – The idea of being a Guru in the traditional sense makes me cringe a little bit.. 😜 The most appealing life-experience to me at this time is being with you all and developing the craziest, ascension oriented, cosmic energy blasting social technologies!
It’s really feels like walking right into a higher dimension… Effortlessly… As if we’d planned this all along…
I wish to empower you with excitement for our 5th dimensional existence (transmission in person soon!) and TRUST in our galactic heritage and wisdom, power, awareness that we already have!  You are my siblings, I feel as a sister who’s had the right circumstances and fluidity in life to be able to respond to spontaneous activations, and who now has undergone enough anchoring and integration of higher-dimensional existence to now be completely at your service in your own complete purifications and full-activations.
I still can’t believe that this trip has turned into a research project in discovering direct correlations between “ancient” texts and aliens, and our galactic journey.  Life is too AWESOME?!
That’s all for today – tomorrow is the festival – 24H of collective chanting dedicated to purification and heart-opening… aided by the energy of the Red Dragon – I’ll be channeling this energy to you MTL posse!  Meditate in the evening time to receive maximum benefit!  If I had more money I would buy you all a moon-stone to charge through the trip, but instead I will charge a large quartz and relay the energies to your crystals at a later time… Should there be some monies that could be sent my way, I’d be ecstatic to be able to pick up gifts on the trip… 😉
CRAZY LOVE & INFINITE BLISS & Forever giggles !
Xi 🐦

Pigeon Posts

My dearest friends,

I’m spending the day resting in my home/office for a short while, studying a couple of tantric texts and contemplating the beauty of existence… Last night I had trouble falling asleep, I hold some fears of being rejected by you all, the last thing I want is to come off like a looneybin, I’m obsessed with spirit alchemy and “the upliftment of humanity” during this epic time on Earth… I deeply believe that you my dear companions can greatly benefit from these e-transmissions, both in content and the being-together-in-this-world vibe / I entertain the possible version of reality within which we arrived on Earth in pods, together creating a “ship”, to bring excitement, joy, love and light to our fellow humans in the form of art, music, consciousness and spiritual liberation.
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As we entered Taos, deeply engrossed in the contemplation of my personal place and mission in my tribe, and the world, l look up and spotted almost a dozen large birds flying in a beautiful geometric configuration
As I wander about the property of the ashram, I feel the pre-festival energy begin to roll through the hills and down into the town, the feeling of heart-opening.  I feel the tenseness and anxiety of city-living slowly release, heart chakra prying open with tinges of pain, sadness and grief leaving, being replaced with warmth and lightness.  I take many moments being with the Sun, our source of energy, information, love and security – my cells recognize his/her gentle song, easing each one with love, healing, rejuvenation, regeneration… My body recognizes the information encoded in the light, of love, evolution, peace, abundance… It comforts me that the same sun radiates the same love to all in our solar system… I take moments by the creek to channel this love and peace to you all.
I feel called to share my insights on mayan time-aligning and dreamweaving with you all, I feel that this practice is deeply Taoist (alignment with Time and All That Is) – the Mayan Dreamspell calendar is a way to learn of cosmic energies that help us navigate each day to maximize learning, growth and transformation.  I believe that as star-children, we were born naturally aligned with our soul missions and all experiences to the current moment in time serves purposes as experiential training to be applied to mission(s).  I believe if we are consciously aware of the energies of each day, with our awareness we can exponentially increase the power and depth of the gifts the cosmos bestow upon us each moment.  Coincidentally, today is the final day of a 20 day cycle, (http://mayankin.com/daily-tzolkin/), day of the Yellow Spectral Sun – “Open your heart as a flower to the Sun, becoming the same love that holds the universes together!” ~ (You can find your astrological sign here: http://www.starroot.com/cgi/daycalc.pl / then google your sign for more information – I’ve begun to collect personal notes and insights on several signs but it’s definitely the beginning of a life of compiling for me! For a long time now I’ve checked the energy of the day each day and contemplated on the lessons, gifts and synchronicities of alignment! It’s truly a powerful and awesome system.)
I feel deeply that I have many things to share with you all, insecurities, self-doubt, growing pains keep me from being able to express myself in person or be the fullest expression of myself that I’m learning to anchor (the intention of this trip beside the research on the cross-over between tibetan buddhism and alien friends).  To make things easy, I’ve decided to start a series of emails, 1 for each day (may be delivered late depending on internet access) of the next 20 day tzolkin cycle – The intention behind these e-transmissions are two-fold, for me it will be an exercise in opening my throat chakra, expressing true-self and speaking truths that I am called to speak to my closest friends whom I fear rejection from the most, also creating a root-chakra healing in my bond, dedication and devotion to you all.  I’m driven by a sense of urgency in unleashing the massive collections of compassion onto the greater collective of humanity – and true work can only begin when we ourselves are awakened fully to our authentic galactic origin, activated our bodies, and cleared of conditions and residual blocked energies.  I believe I have gone through a series of intense activations so that I can be of service to my galactic star-tribe at this time – use me!  I love you!  We are star-children!  Times of speculation and awe are coming to an end as we enter courageously into the next phase of our being-together: acceptance of our solar heritage, acceptance of our superpowers free of doubt empowered synergistically by each other…
You don’t have to reply to these emails, but feedback and questions and suggestions and acceptance and love is always appreciated!
The Sun smiles infinite blessings of love and bliss to you,
Xi 🐦

A Carrier Pigeon Fulfilling Her Mission

My Dearest High-Vibe-Star-Tribe;

It’s the first day of being on the road with Skye, traversing endless desert hills, crossing between Colorado and New Mexico this very moment.  My bus journey ended early this morning, it was a productive 3 days in cerebral solitude in a moving vehicle – one of my favourite activities – and it only continues.  It’s very dry and very hot here, the barren hills of pines and weeds remind me of how blessed we are to have beautiful lush trees.  I’m excited to be in Taos in a couple of hours – I know it will be beautiful, green and peaceful there.

As we all feel, the energies have been extraordinary lately – especially having read up on “the Event Horizon” and solar flares and the age of Aquarius and all other new-age related news – I realized that these articles on the internet are meant to encourage and invigorate us, but they separate us from our own cosmic story – which is pretty juicy! 😉

The Sabian symbol of the lunar month this month is: “Carrier pigeon fulfills her mission” I feel this pretty hard right now! (http://firstcontactgroundcrewteam.com/the-oracle-report-for-friday-september-4-2015/)

On Friday the temple in Taos begins a 24H festivity in which collectively all will chant a mantra (I believe of hari krishna origin) This marks the New Moon, I was hoping to be home at this time, but I’ll be collecting these energies for you all!  The week after, I will be meeting both an “Arcturian master” who will show me some “Arcturian activation portals” on Mt Shasta, and a Rimpoche giving tibetan buddhist empowerments… I feel strongly that these two things are connected, and I will do my best to gather what I can about this! I look forward to bringing back the activations and empowerments to you all, both in actuality as well as my assessment report…

You all have been on my mind and in my field all the time these traveling days, for the first time in my life I’m feeling an intense “missing home”, something I’ve never experienced before in my life, I’m so grateful for you all.

I’m in Taos now, amongst green fields, willow trees, and cute adobe houses… Just had supper at the Hanuman temple beside a giggling creek, now hanging out with a couple of goats and kittens running under cranberry trees, swinging on a swing off two sweet trees on the front lawn of an ex-backup singer of the red hot chilli peppers, who is phenomenal!

I’m here, but my heart is with you all.

Sending you all prayers of peace, cosmic love and infinite bliss. ~ * ❤

Your Red Moon,

Xi 🐦